At Death’s Gate

All those lies I've let myself believe to be true,
That my life is through and I should just suicide.
I cast aside, now that I know the real truth.
I should’ve known that those words never came from you.

Long have I tried to convince myself that I could hide from you,
But that was in vain, because I never left your sight.
I've amplified my sorrow, 'cause that was all I knew
I should've known that that was never true

How could I ever be so oblivious that I've made my own prison?
What a fool I was to believe that there was nothing left for me, than to drown in my own misery.

I've been mesmerised by blatant lies,
I drove myself towards insanity,
I let myself be paralysed,
I wallowed in sorrow,

Until I longed for death, when there was nothing left.
From hope bereft, waiting for my dying breath.
But you have shown how I could overcome.
How I could be strong and that I belong.

I used to be all on my own.
I couldn't believe that night could turn to dawn.
Now that I see all that you've done for me
An epiphany knowing I'm not alone.

My own pride keeps trying to put the blame on me.
That I should've handled things differently.
But that was the lie which was the cause for all my misery.
The downward spiral from which I am freed.

How could I ever be so oblivious that I've made my own prison?
What a fool I was to believe that there was nothing left for me, than to drown in my own misery.

I used to be all on my own.
I couldn't believe that night could turn to dawn
Now that I see all that you've done for me.
An epiphany knowing I'm not alone.